In memory of Shane Michael...

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Our beautiful little angel Shane was unexpectedly diagnosed on October 26, 2007 by ultrasound with several severe birth defects of an unknown cause that were incompatible with life. He was silently born to us 2 weeks later on November 8, 2007 at 12:17 PM. He weighed 3 pounds, 5 ounces, and he was 11 1/2 inches long.
 
We spent 8 months dreaming of our baby boy, waiting for the day he would come home and be a part of our family. In just those 2 short weeks, we had to give up every dream we had of ever holding him or seeing him smile or seeing him play with his big brother Miles. There are no words to describe the feelings we all went through.
 
Today, I just try to stay grateful for every minute I had with Shane. Feeling him move around and feeling him alive inside me for as long as I did is a feeling I will never ever forget. I loved being pregnant with him because I was able to give him life.
 
Although he is still a huge part of our lives, it's nothing like we dreamed it would be. I can only give credit to this little boy Shane, my angel, and of course to all of my wonderful family and friends, for the unrealized strength that I have had through all of this. Despite such a short life, he left his tiny footprints on so many hearts. It is only through our memories that he lives on. 
 
I can only hope that his story will continue to touch hearts, and heal families that are going through this overwhelming and unexpected pain of losing their babies. This website is dedictated to him and his memory.

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The way to love something is to realize that it might be lost...


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For A Moment
(author unknown)
 
I saw for just a moment, your little arms and legs.
The little blur they said was you, but now you've gone away.

I heard for just a moment, the beating of your heart.
The sound that held such promise, but soon it would depart.

I dreamt for just a moment, of the day I'd hold you tight.
I'd listen for your little breath, and rock you through the night.

I cried for just a moment, when they said that you had gone.
I laid alone in silence, that seemed so very long.

I prayed for just a moment, that you would be reborn.
Into my arms you would come and forever would be warm.

I was for just a moment, the mother of a child.
Who laughed and cried and ment so much, if only for a while.

In that single moment, when I finally said farewell.
I knew that we would meet again little baby, for time will only tell.

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An Angel Never Dies
(author unkonwn)
 
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.

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"You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live for yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back,
or you can do what he would want - smile, open your eyes, love, and go on."
David Harkins

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Do Not Stand At My Grave
(author unknown)
 
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep,
I am the thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle Autumn rain.
I am the shining star at night,
When you awake to the morning light.
My time has come, I am at rest,
I am the sunset in the west,
I am the clouds that race above,
Where I watch over those I love.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
So, here the words that here I say,
I am the love that guides your way.

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A Million Times
by Patricia Grant

A million times I needed you,
A million times I have cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You would have never died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a special place,
That none will ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For all my love went with you,
The day God called you home.

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Acceptance
by Gwen Flowers

It isn't letting go.
It's going on.
It isn't only shadows,
And it isn't only dawn.
It isn't getting through it,
It's letting it come through me.
Not living in the darkness,
Though the darkness I can see.
It's living with the sorrow
But finding memories sweet.
It's knowing that it takes both sides
To make it all complete.
It's soaking up the sunshine
Along with the rain.
It's learning to let laughter
live side by side with pain.
It's knowing that the years
Won't change a love that's real,
Or take away the joy you brought,
or the sorrow that I feel.
It's knowing tears and laughter
Can live on the same face,
And your impression on my heart
Can never be erased.

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A poem for Mother's Day....

Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit your stores to find a card.
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she's cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth.
She needs to be honored, and remembered too,
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you'll do your best.
I have done all I can do; to you I'll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.

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Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are
Up above the world so high
Like my diamond in the sky
 
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are
When you were growing in my womb
Then you were taken far too soon
It's not fair, it's not right
Twinkle fades into the night
 
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
You never had a chance to start
But thank you for your tiny spark
I could not see which way to go
If you did not twinkle so
 
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are...

  

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Shane Michael Jeffery 11/8/07